Getting Bigger

Measuring in at a whopping 1.79cm, Baby Bird is getting bigger.

I will never tire of seeing/hearing that heartbeat.

Praise God!!

Uneasy

I am a tad uneasy about my ultrasound tomorrow.

You see, the shared risk portion of my contract is through the 8 week ultrasound. Meaning, if I were to lose this baby anytime after tomorrow, I will not get money back or a second chance at IVF. We knew it was a risk going in, but it feels sort of like my security net is being yanked.

I have really tried to place this pregnancy in God's hands, and I know that He has a plan.

Praying for a good, solid heartbeat again tomorrow.

229 days

Man, that is so far away.

Next up: ultrasound February 22.

Then talking with my OB about a c-section this time around on March 7.

Wish me luck.

Progesterone

I mentioned before that I have to take supplements to support this pregnancy. I cannot remember why, exactly, but it has something to do with that fact that this baby does not have a corpus luteum or something like that.

Anyway, I do a progesterone (PIO) shot every morning, 3 pills per day of Estrogen, and then a patch of Estrogen every other day.

The problem is, my insurance only covers 8 patches per month instead of 16.
They will only fill enough PIO for two weeks, and for a while they would only give me half of the Estrogen I needed at a time.

With the three of these, I am forever running to Target for a prescription. It seems like every week, I am waiting for them to try and sort out what is needed and calling the fertility doctor to clear it with the insurance company.

Don't get me wrong....I am HAPPY to have to do all of these things because it means I am pregnant. Bryce, on the other hand, doesn't really get why we are forever sitting at the pharmacy.

Anyway, I again ran out of patches and progesterone on Friday. I went to Target to fill the prescriptions, only to find out that they did not have PIO. "We can get it on Monday", they said cheerfully.

I panicked, because I knew that most pharmacies do not stock it.

The pharmacist was kind enough to start calling around, but visions of driving out to Ann Arbor for samples of PIO started getting me angry.

Finally, I thought to call Diplomat. They specialize in injectibles. They had it, so we headed downtown to pick up the prescription.

I am thanking God that they had it, though. I did not want to drive all the way to Ann Arbor!

Lesson learned. Call ahead. It dawned on me (driving downtown) that I need to go to Professional Pharmacy. I am sure I would never have had this problem! :-)

Running Total

My sidebar is not working. As this is ALL tax deductible, I want to keep track of how much we are spending:-)

$16 gas, initial consult July 2010
$2.11 meds, for sonohysterogram July 2010
$10 birth control, August 2010
$148 Sonohysterogram, August 2010
$16.50 Sperm Analysis, August 2010
$16 gas, Sono August 2010
$25 gas, Lupron in office October 28, 2010
$2411.17 Bravelle, Menopur, hCG, October 29, 2010
$19, 545 Two Cycle Shared Risk package, November 2, 2010
$21.51 gas, first u/s appt, November 2, 2010
$32.35 Vicotin, Progesterone, Estrace , November 8, 2010
$31 gas, u/s November 9, 2010
$31.51 u/s, November 11, 2010
$32.40 u/s, November 13, 2010
$32 gas u/s November 14, 2010
$34 gas, u/s November 15, 2010
$40 gas, Egg Retrieval November 18, 2010
$10 Dostinex, November 18, 2010
$300 anesthesia, November 18, 2010
$40 gas, complications from vomiting appt, November 21, 2010
$10 Zofran, November 21, 2010
$10 birth control November 30, 2010
$84 Doctor's bill from November 21, 2010
$4 Amoxicillon for transfer December 8, 2010
$10 Vivelle Dot Patch December 12, 2010
$36 Gas, Lupron Shot Appointment December 22, 2010
$1160 FET Monitoring December 28, 2010
$40 Gas, December 28 ultrasound appointment
$40 Gas, January 6 ultrasound
$50 gas, transfer (YAY:-) January 14, 2011
$18 Estradial and Progesterone January 20, 2011
$4 Needles January 20, 2011
$3.39 Needles January 30, 2011
$20 Progesterone and Vivelle Dot January 30, 2011
$10 Estradiol February 7, 2011
$45 gas First u/s February 8, 2011
$10.00 Diplomat Pharmacy, PIO February 11, 2011
$7.45 Seratonin Target, February 14, 2011
$90.99 Vivelle Dot patch, February 11, 2011
$3.53 Needles, Target February 18, 2011
$10 Vivelle Dot February 24, 2011
$10 PIO March 1, 2011
$32.93 Estrace, PIO, Vala March 8, 2011
$40 For the 10 week u/s March 10, 2011

We have ONE solid heartbeat!

Isn't it beautiful?

Josh is thrilled (that is it just one). I think the thought of FOUR kids in Christian school terrified him.

I would still appreciate your prayers. My seratonin levels are still really low, so I am struggling with OCD. Jesus is everything to me, and I know that He will carry me through this. Normally, a SSRI would help and eliminate the obsessing part, but I cannot take anything right now while pregnant.

Thank you for your prayers thus far! It is awesome to have people on this journey with me!

5 weeks, 3 days pregnant

I have to admit, after three good beta draws, I am finally starting to dream about this babe.

I finally allowed myself to plug in the due date calculator...which is really confusing because of the embryo being 5 days old already at transfer. I think it will be around October 1st or 2nd?

I am sure that means, Lord willing, I will have it around October 10 LOL

Anyway, it has been joyful thinking about all things baby again. God has given me joy in my heart where there once was so much sorrow. I am thankful I did not get bitter this time around, like I did with Bryce, and that I relied on God every step of the way. Even when I felt down at Christmas, I still was not angry at God.

I am finally allowing myself to think whether it will be a boy or girl. My mom thinks it is a boy, and appropriately brought me a gift bag full of blue:-) Blue pacis (which Bryce immediately thought were his), blue bottles, blue gift bag....it cracked me up.

I cannot say I am not still a little apprehensive about the u/s on Tuesday, but the hope is gradually seeping in:-)